It suddenly hit me

One of the reasons I havent been posting or active much on the blog is because of my academic life.

It consumes a lot of my time to be quiet honest.

But with the large amount of work that I have to deal with on daily bases, you cannot help but feel stressed. Both mentally and physically exhausted. 

At one point, I couldnt help but think whether the path I chose was the right one. 

I made the decision to study within this field, I wanted this, my parents gave me the entire freedom, no one pressured me to enter any field, it was ultimately my decision.

But, I asked, what if what I want, is different than what Allah has planned for me?

All those questions repeat while you are under pressure. You cannot help but question it.

So I had to ask Allah, in my prayer and duaa whether I made the right decision or whether I should find a way out & thats when it hit me. This hectic lifestyle was good for me. I am naturally restless. I have to be busy at all times, if I dont, I find something, anything whether good or bad to keep me occupied. 

So this ‘hectic’ and ‘stressful’ life made me study, gain knowledge, maintain all my prayers so Allah is happy with me, and when things get rough or good, I can always turn back to Allah. If I was occupied ‘living my life’, I would get distracted, I would indulge in the fun this life brings, and this will lead me no where.

Who knew that something that made me stress this much was benefiting me? SubhanAllah indeed.